Now, I will try to update in small chunks because the past six months has been PACKED!! I am REALLY going to make an effort to stay on top of this blogging thing from now on.
Firstly, God has blown me away this past 8 months!! I have never seen His faithfulness and grace on my life like I have since being here. It has been nonstop.
It also has been tough. Im not going to lie and act like its all peaches and daisies. I won't sugar coat anything and act like its all Ive ever thought and more.
To be honest. Its COMPLETELY different than what I thought! I mean, I thought it would be a little tough. I knew there would be difficulties, but you never fully understand something until you experience it yourself. Some people will face difficulty by running away to denial. I had no where to run. I faced this puppy head on. And I am SO glad I did.
I have been working and learning NON stop. My mind is always going. Not just on a couple things either. There have been so many "first times" that my mind feels like it is going to explode and I end up collapsing on my bed for a good long nap to be able to reenergize! Thats how I work. My hubby (SUCH a strength, I seriously would never be able to do this without him!) is a MACHINE!! He can keep going from the moment he opens his eyes to the moment he collapses into bed at night. I cant. I need time in between big tasks to refocus, think, and reenergize. So it has been super crazy for me!!
In all of this hustle and bustle, God has really done so much in me! I have learned more in this time than I have in years. I have learned and still am learning how to rest in Him even in the craziness of this life. He recently cleaned my heart/mind of all the clutter in my life which was the most refreshing thing!! Not that the things He removed were necessarily "wrong" but they really distracted me and took my eyes off of Him. I realized how often I turned to things of this world instead of Christ to fulfill any longing I had. Whether I just needed a good laugh and put on a comedy instead of finding true joy in His presence, or if I needed to zone out and turned to Candy Crush! LOL. I realized how often I tried to find rest and joy in things of this world instead of going straight to God!! I was truly humbled and really surrendered all that "clutter" over to God and let Him be the only ONE that I found fulfillment.
Now that all that 'clutter' is out of the way, I seriously feel an actual weight lifted off! Even though this month has been one of the most craziest months so far, I feel such joy and peace and rest through it all!
So that pretty much sums up in a tiny space what God has been doing in THIS area of my life. I'm done for today, I have way too much to do!! Ill be back soon ;)
"And do not turn aside after empty things that cannot profit or deliver, for they are empty." 1 Sam 12:21
